May 29, 2010.

I didn't post anything yesterday, just didn't take the time. But, can you believe it? I have had this blog going now for a whole month. A whole month!!! I really did not expect it to go past a couple of days. I'm not sure how many people are still reading it, but I do plan to keep writing in it.

To catch up on things this week....Rudy-dog is better today, though we still do not know what is causing his nose problems. The test results are not back yet, but I really did not expect them back yet. I work for a large animal vet so I know that these tests can sometimes take a few days. Especially tests that check for fungal infections. It just stinks that this is a holiday weekend so getting results back won't happen till Tuesday or Wednesday.

It's been an expensive week. One of those weeks where you so wish you had an emergency fund already in place. Since our bankruptcy finished in the last month or so, we are trying to regroup our finances and establish some kind of savings. So, far it hasn't happened. We have cut back on just about anything we can cut back on. We even shut off our Dish Network and currently have no tv channels. We do stream Netflix through the Wii, so have had that for entertainment. Working at the cinema in the evenings has cut down on anytime we do have to watch it so it hasn't been too painful.

I sometimes feel guilty for not finding a full-time job. After we left The Doghouse, I found myself with 3 days off during the week. I have to admit...it has been nice having those 3 days. I work the other two days at an office, and 5 nights a week at the cinema. (sometimes 6) On my days off during the week, I have joined a Bible study at my church and have begun meeting a friend from church for morning coffee and conversation.

This morning I am going to put in my application at Walmart. I wouldn't mind working there one or two days a week..not sure how they are at working with you if you have another job, but I figured it couldn't hurt to try.

Chris and I had a long talk last night about our finances. We are currently just making all our bills. When you are a salesman as he is, one check of the month has your commission. It's hard to budget when you are never quit sure how much that check will be. This month, it was a lot lower then last month. We did have enough to cover bills...but, just barely. If our utility bill had been higher, we probably would have not had enough. We were supposed to go on a cruise for our 25th wedding anniversary the first week of November. I have for quite awhile now doubted how this was going to happen...and last night, Chris finally came to the realization that there was no way we could go. He cancelled the cruise. I am OK with this, there is always next year. So what if it's our 25th anniversary. We can celebrate a cruise for our 26th.

Prior to the start of this blog, I would have probably felt differently about this. I would have pouted and sulked and felt sorry for myself. Allowing Christ into your life and letting him guide you, it changes things. I still have some of my old ways inside of me...but, they are slowly going away. The cruise just wasn't meant to be....and I'm sure God had a reason for it.