Christmas Day is over. It seems to come upon us so fast sometimes, then suddenly it's over. Next we have New Years Day....then, we enter into the long months of January and February with cold and snow. Though so far the month of December has proved warmer then normal and hardly any snow thus far!
I can't believe that the year 2011 is almost over. In six weeks my husband will turn the age of 50. It seems like just yesterday it was 1985 and we were getting married. I am reaching the age that when I was 12 I thought was old.
At the start of a New Year, people often think back and reminisce on their past. Not just of the previous year, but of other years gone by. There are some things I do regret in our life. One is not having children. I'm very mixed on this decision. Half of me regrets it, the other half of me doesn't. Even as a young girl, I did not picture myself a mother. My regrets on this is that Chris never has had the experience of being father. He has talked recently about possibly becoming foster parents, or maybe adopting an older child. I am just not so sure. I just really don't know if I could deal with such an abrupt shift in my life as this would be.
The decisions in life. Sometimes they are easy, sometimes they are not.
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Oh Jodi--parenthood is such a mixed blessing. You already know my story. On the other hand, it does bring a great deal of joy. Foster and older adoptees are really, really tough. However, there is such a huge need for families. I had kids when I was working in IPS that so needed stability and structure. There was one little girl in particular I wanted to scoop up and bring home. But I knew that doing so would not really "fix" her. If it's something you really feel called to explore, let's get together and talk sometime...the good, bad and ugly as it were. Keep in mind that human love is NOT enough when it comes to helping these kids. God's love and Spirit is...but then, isn't that really what life is about?
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