September 9, 2011

Patience.  It is not my virtue.  I have struggled all my life with being patient.  Being an impatient person usually only results in causing undue stress on yourself.  It can also cause you to be careless.  Like when you are trying to do something, get impatient because it is taking too long...only resulting in whatever you are doing to take longer.  I'm sure if I looked I would find many Proverbs in the Bible on the evils of being impatient.

I am impatient right now.  Chris has only one actual job offer.  It's not a job that one can retire on, but it is a job.  Cooking for a restaurant on the weekends, about 20 hours a week.   In today's economy, I should be grateful he will be doing something that will bring in some money.  But, I am impatient.  Why can't he find a position that will pay better and help us pay our bills better.  He does have several job possibilities that would offer more hours and more pay...but, they are just possibilities.  And his unemployment still has not been approved.   I am impatient.  Impatient because the end of September is going to come upon us fast.  Then, October when what we have put away in the bank will need to be pulled out to cover bills.  Then, nothing in the bank.


Then today I found out the Angel Food program that our church uses has suspended service for the month of September.  It's a sad note when even organizations such as this, who strive to help people buy food at a cheaper price then the store, is hit by the tough economic times.  Chris and I have been buying through Angel Food for well over a year now.  I had already placed an order for a chicken box this month and I learned today, no orders.  The company is hoping to reorganize and restart in October.  

Patience, patience, patience.  That and a full faith in God.  Why do I struggle with these two things?  Why do I put so much stress on myself?  I envy people who just turn all their problems over to the Lord.   I need to search some of these people out and try to figure out how they have such peace within themselves.