June 29, 2010

As I stated in my previous blog post, I wanted to talk about ways in which my life has changed since accepting Christ. Another thing that has changed within myself is just a new found sense of well-being. It's kind of hard to explain. All my life I been a worrier, a fretter...someone who always felt that if things were going to go wrong...they would. If life was going to poop on me...it would. (that was another thing I've changed..my language. The word poop used to be replaced with something more colorful)

Anyway, in the last couple of months...while life itself has gone on normally, inside me things are different. Chris and I still struggle with finances, we still deal with difficulties within our families, we still have the same things going on in our life...but, it's not freaking me out like it usually does. Sure, I do get stressed a bit...I mean, we all do. But...it's different. I wish I could put it into words better.

I now have the Lord to lean on, to help, to talk to. I can turn to the Bible for comfort, for guidance and to help put things into perspective. I have friends who I can turn to if I feel I need to talk to someone other then my spouse. Instead of keeping all my worries bottled up inside of me....I let them out.

The instance with our van was a good example. My whole reaction to this situation was different.

I have begun a small notebook that I carry in my purse. In it I have jotted down scripture verses that I have found comforting. As I learn new ones, I add them to the notebook. If I need to, I can take it out anytime I want and read a verse if I need to. I find it reassuring and comforting to read these words.

More later....